You know, I am remarkably blessed. Just amazingly so...
I am still cancer free after a year. And it was confirmed by my doc yesterday.
Looking back on that time in my life, when I was diagnosed, you would have thought that that would be terrifying and stressful. But, for me, it was a blessing. It sounds sick, I know, and I do not mean in anyway to demean or diminish those who are still fighting. (My prayers are with you, fight on, you can do it!) And I know that I had it easy. I almost don't deserve the title of cancer survivor, because mine was cured, quickly and apparently efficiently.(praise GOD!) And now, a year and a bit later, I am still well and I am so grateful.
As for the 365 project, I am still chugging away. Since my last post, I have made a big dent in getting our bedroom back in order and remade into a haven of peace and calm.
I made plans with a friend to take a photography course. I want to be a "real" photographer and learn about f stops and what slr is and not have a phd (point here dummy) camera anymore, but a real one with lenses and flashes.( hoo hoo hoo!)
And, we still have Jack here until tomorrow, so we are taking him out to dinner tonight for our last night with him. I told him he is my son who lives in China, now. I am really going to miss him. He bought an itouch as his thing that he wanted most from America, (boys are just the same everywhere:)
And finally, I was taken to task last night in my bible study group because I called one of my ladies, honey. ( I actually think I called them all that at one point or another) but this woman took special offense at it. Now, if you know me, I call everyone honey or hon. The post office guy, salesclerks, my students, my husband, my kids, the neighbors, they all get it. I do not discriminate. It's a general term of friendliness for me and a part of my speech that I am not even conscious of. But I was lambasted by this woman in front of everyone in my group because she thought I was being demeaning to her and to the other ladies in my group. I was not meaning anything like that in any sort of way. I don't know what to do now, though because I cannot imagine being in a group with this woman and I am the leader of the group, so I can't just not show up, not when all of my precious other ladies are counting on me to be their guide. And because it is an unconscious habit, I can't be sure that I won't do it again. In my head I was trying to formulate a defense, and even in that I used the word honey.
I was so upset, I just bawled as I was leaving last night. I know that Jesus said we would face opposition on his account, but sheesh, I never expected it from a fellow church member. And I know, reading this, it sounds like a little thing, but this woman really blasted me and really embarrased me. She was trying to draw others into her wrath in her comments (She said to another woman, I saw you wince when she called you THAT (like I had called her son of Satan himself or something else just as hideous instead of an innocuous, hon) and now I am not sure how to deal with the other members of my group. I just have no confidence now and I was trying to do a good thing. Do they all think poorly of me?
My precious son said, Mom you should have said Honey,let me tell you something, if you don't like honey, I can think of a whole host of other things to call you.
At least my family has my back.
More of the continuing drama next week.
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